Sleep is for the weak

It concerns me that I have to stay up hours longer than I'd like to, until I am completely and utterly exhausted barely able to keep my eyes open, so that I can actually sleep. Instead of lying in bed working myself into a panic and a frenzy with my thoughts so that I won't sleep at all, just lie there silently, wishing for sleep but unable to find it. The fact that lying in the dark and quiet by myself now terrifies me again is also concerning, I need music or someone in bed with me, but music keeps me awake unless I'm dead on my feet tired, and I don't have anyone to sleep with. Needless to say I'm not sleeping very well, and I miss being well rested and not tired all the time. #thankgodforcoffeetho #amirite