New Month, New Me.

Okay, I've got forty minutes until it's not the first day of April anymore, and these are my last forty minutes as the old me. I mean I'll keep bits and pieces of the old me, but it's time for me to love me. I'm going to get over my ex. Maybe I still love him a little, maybe I always will, but he's got a new girlfriend and he's never going to love me back, so why waste my emotional energy? He's not worth it. (He really is.) I will not cry over him again and I will delete my playlist of songs that make me think of him, that damn playlist and all the songs on it are like the number one trigger of my depression and I don't need that shit in my life any more. Out with the old and in with the new. Speaking of new, I met (well technically re-re-met, since I knew him when I was a kid, and then we unknowingly hooked up in a club the other day) a really nice guy at Zambreros today, who before he was even sure who I was was like the friendliest and most familiar person ever, who made me smile straight up even though I'd been having a shitty day. We had a conversation later after I added him on Facebook, and idk I could really see this going somewhere, though I don't know where since I'm about to leave and he's moving to Melbourne, but who knows, it's time to take each day as it comes instead of looking at the long haul and letting my anxiety scare me out of actually giving anything a proper go. Also he's v cute in a grungy skater bad boy kinda way which is #perf c;
I'm going to start doing stuff that puts me out of my comfort zone, rather than just being content to live in my little cozy shelter. Idk what yet, but I know I have to do it.
I'm going to start taking steps to deal with my various mental issues, but also accept that they're there, and they're nothing to be ashamed of, and people aren't just going to stop wanting to hang out with me once they find out it have depression/anxiety/OCD, and if they do stop wanting to hang out with me then they're not worth my time anyway. 
I'm going to tell people how I feel. Okay, no, I probably won't do that one, but I'll try.
I'm going to stop posting sad whiny shit on this blog, and actually make it interesting for people, but I'm still going to post about my life bc it's my blog and I do what I want.
I'm going to write a fuck tonne of stuff because it's what I love to do and I don't care if it's shit people who think that can suck my dick it's my life so fuck you.
I'm going to (try to) finally be kinda happy.
I'm going to (try to) actually feel something.
I'm going to (try to) have more than basic and cold hearted emotions.
I'm going to fucking yolo it because you do really only live once, and I'm not going to waste it.
I'm going to be a new improved me.

xoxo